when your at a young age specifically 13-14 your brain adapts and sticks to the music that you liked at that young age , and that will be the genre that you will listen to for the rest of your life according to studies , when I was at age 13 i was listening to a lot of rap and I was in love with one artist respectively which is called ( xxxtentacion ) (aka Jahseh onfroy) , I found out about him while I was watching a video on youtube , as i was watching that video i heard a short snippet of his music in that video and I liked it , so I was curious to find more of his music, so I went to dig for his music and I found out about 5 songs in that day and then I fell in love with his art and I started to listen to him everyday and I followed him on all platforms a few months forward , I started to listen to all of his music , I find him as best artist cause he does various types of music and perfects them all he does rap and all its genres , rock , alternative rock , and RnB , sound cloud rap , mumble rap emo rap , punk etc... , while i was 13 I was listening to his rap side but when I grew up one year , I started to listen to his other side and I found out that all I wanted is to create music a good as his him , he inspired me to have purpose in my life as I was still trying to find one at that time, I was writing music at that stage in life but at the time 2018 was born he have changed to the better and i changed with him to the better he was releasing all the positive music and he was spreading the positivety on his social medias and he was telling all his fans to write journals so they can see how they improve, I was ready to write and produce my own positive music with all the good energy , he was my idol , still is , I learned alot of techniques on writing music I was almost ready to release my own music 1 younger than him , he started when he was 16 and I was 14 almost turning 15 and before my birthday by a few weeks i dreamed of him surprising me on my birthday , my birthday which is at the 13th of june , and that dream made me want to meet more than before but sadly he died after 5 days of my birthday , he was murder by four robbers who blocked his car at the gate of a motorcycle store , they got out of the car and stole his bag that had 50k $ , i took his life for granted and i never believed it until justice was served and all four were arrested i knew i could be in denial forever, felt like the connection that was between us was destroyed and i was really depressed that he died at the age of 20.
Eventually i accepted it and i was happy because he died after his message was received by us his supporters and that he ended his life on a good note, i, but now i feel even better than the start of 2018 when he was evolving , i feel like the bond that is between me , him and his supporters is more than powerful than ever, now i am ready to release music i just need the equipment and everytime i think of him i tend work harder , i really now cannot repeat the mistakes that he has done in the beginning , he defeated his old self and was the positive X , what makes this look odd that one of his music videos ( sad!) whic is his second music video it shows him attending his own funeral and killing his negative self and his last music video (moon light) it shows him in his afterlife smiling at people as a good sprite while the people celebrating his life , and in alot of interviews he has said one day he will die young but he will have his message received by others , my main goal is to become as great as him and have a cult that could be one as a family and lead them to the right path. "go tell your idol you love them... because i dont have mine anymore and i can convince you it hurts like hell every second"-X
No comments:
Post a Comment